choose your own adventure

sometimes i feel like my life is one big giant choose your own adventure book...except i'm stuck on a choosing page paralyzed with indecision for weeks and months at a time.  I alternate by days, hours, minutes, one instant positive that I want to stay here in Tahoe and look for a job/accept one of the options i have, and the next instant positive that i'm ready to go, move on to someplace new, scream F YOU south lake tahoe post office for telling me that my address was all set and then sending my christmas presents back to my parents...sorry, i'm a little bitter about that one.  I haven't been updating this lately because every day would say the same thing: i don't know what to do.  I'm grumpy and stressed even though I really don't know why....I have a job, i'm working on health insurance, and I have friends.  Just because I don't have a future doesn't mean I never will.  Patience pays in this world and I'm patiently waiting for something to come forward and fit.  You know, just feel right.

It's snowing out here, about 10 inches had fallen by 10:30 tonight, so now its time for bed and dreams...cross your fingers for me that I can even get to work in the morning.  Might be time for me to finally cave and buy chains, i'm unimpressed with their snow removal in this town.  Good night!